I can feel you slipping away, it makes me wonder what's really changing. I feel like I'm a small lost child in a dark and empty forest, one that keeps changing so I have no sense of direction. Is it so hard for you to tell me what you want? What do you need from me? Am I becoming a burden to you? I feel like now I'm living in constant negativity and doubt and that you're actually enjoying watching me suffer. Let's rewind time, let's rewind our lives and go back to the beginning... Or should we skip forward, see what's really going to happen and accept how things are going to be? You're an addiction and you know you have me at your fingertips. Please stop toying with me. Either embrace me or abandon me. I feel like I'm just being tolerated. The amount of ache you deliver, that heavy weight in my heart and mind. I wish you were clear with me.
I feel you slipping away and I'm not sure whether to hold on tight... or let go.
Until next time.
xx
