Ximenia

Oh man><

I don't know how he does it. My neighbour, who is a marijuana addict btw, somehow got himself employed as the book keeper of cockfight competitions. Yes, you heard right, the type of tournaments where you put two pissed off roosters into a ring and bet which rooster will win [and yeah, it's a fight to the death]; and he records all the bettings down. Yes yes it's illegal...but it's his life I guess. Talk about animal cruelty as well== [take this moment to give those roosters a moments silence please]. He came home and knocked on my house door and held a dead rooster that still had blood trickling down it's head and asked my mum if she wanted a few.
I ran into my room and stayed there. I'm still in here. If we have any chicken related dishes in the next few days I'm not eating them.

Today was pretty average. Nothing out of the ordinary. Parents argued. People getting blamed. Me feeling lethargic and unmotivated all the time...yeah, nothing new to report to you guys. Speaking of which, don't you hate the irony that parents always use?
Scenario: they yell at you and end their blabber with a question...
A) you reply to their question -->you get told off for answering back to them
B) you stay silent --->you get told off for ignoring them
Scenario: they swear at you and threaten to leave
A) you don't react -->they start complaining that no one cares
B) you look worried but stay silent --> you get the 'is that all you can say?' speech
C) you say 'noo please stay' --> you get the 'YOU'RE ONLY SAYING THAT NOW?' speech
Scenario: you're broke, cause your parents take your youth allowance money and any other moneys you get or make
A) they get annoyed when you can't afford them a good pressie for their birthdays
B) they expect you to be able to support yourself in the future and help pay off the mortgage for them
C) when you really really need money and you ask them for it, they skitz at you saying 'money doesn't grow on trees'
Scenario: your siblings are giving you hell
A) your sibling makes a false accusation and lies to your parents, saying you did something- in which you obviously didn't do --> your parents believe your sibling's lies over your truth
B) you tell your parents what your siblings did --> they tell you to stop being so ridiculous
C) you don't do anything --> your sibling continues to annoy the shizzle out of you

See? You can never win==, and if there IS a way, I'd love to find out.

Good news is, tomorrow I'm going to the Monash University opening day. There's this double degree course I'm interested in and am curious to find out more about it. Down side is, it's so far away...sigh:(

That's all from me today:) Catch up with you all later

Until next time.
xx

Watermelon

THE CALORIES ARE BUILDING!!!!!

I finished the creme brulee today; well, kinda. My damn teacher was being unbelieveably impossible. It wasn't just me, though, there was another girl who was feeling as irked as I was. When someone tells you you have time you actually don't rush things, right? Well, I put icing sugar on my creme brulees in the shape of a skull then asked for the blow torch. By the time she finally came with the blowtorch, the icing sugar had melted. She then tried to torch my creme brulees for me and claimed there was not enough sugar on top. So I added more. She tried torching them again and believe it or not my creme brulee caught on fire..as well as losing it's skull shape. After burning my creme brulee she turns to me and says however I present it, I would have to think quickly cause she wouldn't have all day. At that point it was rush rush rush, and her continuously not helping; just blaming me for being disorganised, for not thinking ahead and for keeping her back. AND LUNCHTIME HAD JUST STARTED!!! SO much for her bullshit of 'we'll do it during lunchtime'. Could it be any more obvious that she doesn't care about students? Damn stupid teacher. But like I said, I wasn't the only one in her wrath, another girl who was finalising her turkish delights got annoyed by my teacher too. The hospitality teacher came in to see how we were and trust me when I say this, I would rather him a million times more than the lady I have now teaching me.

Anyway, my friends came into the cooking room and since she had already left, there wasn't much we could do. They stole a few turkish delights though and seemed happy about that. We all went down to the cafeteria then and I watched my friends devour two of my uber sweet creme brulees and drink from a chocolate sauce bottle with a straw. Yeah, you guessed it, they went really high afterwards; but it was good fun and made me forget how hopeless my teacher's help was before:)

After methods, I had a free period, so I pretty much finished the school day earlier. I went with CaramelloKoala to the shops and LORDIE I love that girl. She bought me a WHOLE MEAL from KFC. As in large chips, drink and a yummy chicken burger. Bless her dear soul:)

I also watched a couple of my other mates eat three cheeseburgers stacked upon each other. It looked...oily-ish. But he'll survive:P

All in all, I had a pretty good day. My dad loves my creme brulees, my mum complained that they were too sweet. Me? Yeah, they're sweet, but they're the bad addictive type of sweet. I have pictures now but I'll upload them up another time:)

Until then.
xx

Voavanga

If you were a guy and I found out you downloaded porn, then laughed at you, would I be hurting your feelings??

Just curious

Until next time.
xx

Ugli

First of all, yes, a fruit called 'ugli' actually does exist:)


Today during Romeo and Juliet Rehearsals, I had lots of fun. It felt good that I was able to not worry or stress about anything. I also had my friends there, which was uber cool.

I wanna take this opportunity to say thanks to LOVINGPHUONG cause he fed me some popcorn chicken after school. I owe you $3.45 man. But DAMN, I'm feeling the calories building up...even my mum noticed.' You're getting fatter and fatter each day you know that girl?'..yes mum:(

I want a pomeranian. They're these cute ass fluffy dogs that are always energetic. Imagine that, a pomeranian to add onto my growing list of pets. Just look at it, as if you wouldn't want one!


I've decided I'll be making chocolate ice cream next week. I think I might make a cashew praline to go with it. Though I'm not sure on how to present it to relate to the theme of 'Dia de los muertos'. Any suggestions will be gratefully welcomed:)

Until then.
xx

Tangerine

You know what I remembered today? During methods, while the teacher was picking on me to read a question, Jibbles and LOVINGPHUONG were talking while I was reading right, then the teacher made me pause, then turned to them and said
'You two boys are being very disrespectful to Intrigued.shesays, I would like you both to apologise to her this instant'
In which Jibbles replied, smiling-'No.'
Then the teacher turned to me and said 'You can continue reading now sweetie.'
WHAT THE LOL?!
I still want my apology :P

Starfruit

I feel so out of it right now. I feel like running on a long strip of sand with the ocean right beside me and no one else. I feel like sleeping at the beach after I run out of energy. What is domestic violence? What is the actual definition? There are different definitions to this term for different cultures. It makes me wonder what is actually legal or 'allowed'; and what isn't. There are many days I want to crawl into a little hole and just stay there. I'd have time to think, time to calm down, time to actually empty my mind.

I wish there was someone that I could talk to about these things. Someone that I could just let loose to and that the person would always know the right thing to say. I wish I didn't need that type of person for my type of reasons. I know there are things I should be able to control. It just seems..hard. Especially when you can never ever get what you asked for, even as simple as...a simple life.

My guitar calms me down a bit. I continuously play the same tune from the song 'Photobooth' by Death Cab For Cutie and it has calmed me down a bit, but it's just a temporary thing, you know? I feel like I'm that word again. I know it's a bad word to think about, but that word always always pops up into my head when things get 'pear-shaped' [as my accounting teacher loves to say]. 'Burden'. I feel like I'm a burden, regardless of what people say. It's just... indented and nailed into my brain, like someone has stitched it there. To my family, I can never seem to get any approval, to my friends, approval...of what? Why do I need approval? I don't know. I'm just feeling lost. Lost lost lost. I depend on...something. What is it? Is it because I'm stupid? How could a person not know what they want? How could other decisions be made if something as simple as this cannot be decided. I hide secrets. Lots and lots of secrets. A good thing? A bad thing? I don't know. If i bare out my secrets, I'll push everyone away. they wouldn't see me the same. Wouldn't want to know me. Think I'm an attention seeker. I'll be a burden. See? A burden. burden. burden. burden. I hate that word. I hate myself sometimes too. Ask me why? Pfft, like I'd know. Though, hiding all these secrets, these events that happen every day, it hurts holding it all in. I need to let out. But I'm afraid. Afraid of what could and will happen.

Life sucks at times like this.

Apologies for the downer blog. I just had to get it out there, you know?

Until next time.
xx

Rhubarb

I made a batch of creme brulee today at school. Six in total. They looked alright, though they have to set in the fridge for about 4 hours until I can actually say if they're a success or a failure. Speaking of failures, I finally got photos of my maize cake. It was quite hard and well, it turned out better than I had expected, which was good. I tried shaping the cake into a skull. I think I was able to do an oookay job. Well, I hope so. Here ya go.

So this is now the close up:

Yeah, so that's what the final result looked like. Then it got demolished after people ate it. I personally found it a bit hard, but quite a few people liked it to my surprise, or maybe they were just saying that to be polite.

Meh, que sera sera.

Until then.
xx

Quince

dedication to my beloved big boobied beautiful mermaid nibbles~

You know those type of hairstyles that you can't stand? Or those type of looks that people give that make your stomach queasy? Yeah, I hate that feeling. There are just some things in the world that piss me off so badly. I mean, it may not be the person's fault the way they appear but the fact that they could improve their look but lack in doing so pisses me off. Who the fudge would ruin their already not fabulous look with a worser look.

I miss the old days. There are just some days when I look at where I stand in life and wonder if it could have ever been better. I wish there was a multiple choice thingo [ like on who wants to be a millionaire] in front of us before we make life changing decisions. This way, everyone will have a choice to think twice before making a decision.

I am currently talking to one of my beloved friends on the phone. It feels like I havent't been able to talk to this person for ages and now that I am talking to this person, it kinda fills a up this little empty place I used to have. Funny feeling that, but a good feeling nevertheless:)

I'm making a creme brulee tomorrow during food tech with chocolate sauce. The recipe asked for mexican chocolate but since I couldn't find any I'm gonna mix dark chocolate and ground cinnamon together. Hopefully I'll get the same desired taste for my chocolate sauce:)

I'll try get pictures of my failure maize cake tomorrow, but no promises. As for the creme brulee, it has to set for 4 hours in the fridge so those pics won't come till later.

I ditched school today, purely cause I didn't feel like it. I woke up at 10 and had 3 packets of mi goreng. It was pure bliss:) I worked a bit on my food folio...and purposely avoided methods. I shouldn't do that though because I have a sac coming up and I should catch up asap:(

To end today's post, I'll put up a pic of one of my guinea pigs. His name is Cotton and I love him to bits. He's huge now but very camera shy, so these pics are when he was still a baby and not very camera shy:)


So adorable.

Until then.
xx

Pineapple

MAN! This post is purely dedicated to this awesome kickass ninja pic. NINJAS WOOT WOOT!


Until next time.
xx

Orange

I'm feeling fat fat fat.
I've had salad for lunch every day of the last week but I overtipped the balance by putting so much junk and grease into my body.
What junk did I have this week?

Shared a family dinner box

Had two junior whoppers

Three wicked wings [after one of the junior whoppers]

A few subway rolls

And shared a KFC family dinner meal which included 2 pieces of chicken, chips, coke, gravy and a sugary yet yummy bread roll.

All of that on top of my usual meals of normal home cooked dinners, salads for lunch and random things for breakfast. I should really control myself:(

Damn my never ending hunger.

Damn my obsession with food.

You know what though? I don't care. I'll just stick with what I love.

Damn my stubbornness.

Until then.
xx

Nectarine

To start off with, Adam won masterchef....WOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

Okay, now onto my day today. A few highs and lows, mainly quite a few highs. I went to lectures today with my friends, though they all went to the spesh ones, leaving me alone in the methods one:(
BUT NO FEAR! This guy sat next to me, and although we didn't know each other, I think we may have shared a mutual understand, which was -the methods lecture was boring and sucked. I was very tempted to say hi to him but I didn't get the time to; because after an hour and a half of attempting to not fall asleep my friends from the spesh lecture came to my rescue. What did we do? We bailed. And honestly, it was the best choice made today:)
Met a few old friends today and made a few new ones too. Funny how that happens, when you haven't seen someone for a while...do you start from base one of friendship or try and pick up where you left off? Either way, it was good to see some old and new faces.
Tomorrow is Monday.
Monday = school
School = :(

Until next time.
xx

Mango

'As time goes on your independence will grow exponentially and you'll be surprised with the power you have'

Wise words spoken from a wise Jibbles.

He reeks with awesomeness~

Lemon

There's this boy who's hurt a girl.

There's this girl who wants revenge.

There's this boy who deserves to feel pain.

There's this boy who hurt this girl.

There's this boy who had lied to this girl countless times in the past.

He had a girlfriend, yet he led on this girl.

He had what he needed, yet he wanted more.

He got more...and more and more and more.

He became greedy.

He hurt this girl you see.

She was his slave.

He hurt this girl. He blinded her...she only saw him.

She was foolish. Let him have his way.

She was foolish. She had cemented the door labeled ESCAPE, blocking her only way out.

Her friends told her. Her friends warned her.

She only saw him.

Now it's not the case. He weakens. Her power grows. She will use it. It's now her turn.

Until then.
xx

Kiwi

I wonder what it would be like to have everything you want. Everything as in anything..and everything. Money, love, power, the biggest house, the comfiest bed, the most expensive car, owner of chains of restaurants, no job, absolute freedom. Would you be happy? Would you keep wanting more? Would you be able to control yourself? Would there be a purpose to your life? Would you use your everything as an advantage to help others?

I wonder what it would be like to have nothing in the world. No money, no friends, no family, no home. How long would you be able to survive? Would you even be able to survive at all? Is there any way that you would be able to pick yourself up?

I wonder what it would be like to live forever. You have your whole life to make money. You could eventually become a millionaire. you would see things begin and things end.

I wonder what it would like to die? Is it a sleep? Does it hurt? How long would you be remembered? Would the world tip out of chaotic order because your absence has altered the balance?

I wonder what is thr true meaning of life.

Then again, who hasn't?

Until next time.
xx

Jackfruit

She sits in her corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped in all of the promises
That no one seems to keep
She no longer cries to herself,
No tears left to wash away
Just diaries of empty pages,
Feelings gone astray
But she will sing
'Till everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
'Till everything burns
Walking through life unnoticed
Knowing that no one cares
Too consumed in their masquerade
No one sees her there

Watching it all fade away...

Until then.
xx

Iceplant

I am a burden
to my friends
push push push
to the world
rarr rarr scare
to my friends
tension in the air
in my life
I am a burden

Until next time.
xx

Honeydew

i hate i hate i hate how my parents think they're superior just because i'm younger than them. i hate i hate i hate how they think they're always right, even though there's evidence to prove them wrong. i hate i hate i hate how they expect so much from me, the expectations seem to go on forever. i hate i hate i hate how they always control me, or always think they have control over me. i hate i hate i hate how they see me as future income, rather than their daughter. i hate i hate i hate how harsh and honest their words are; how raw they can cut me and they dont even have to try. i hate i hate i hate how they always yell but never listen. i hate i hate i hate how when i reply they always tell me off for talking back to them and when i dont reply they tell me off for ignoring them. i hate i hate i hate how every time i try to do something for them they brush it aside. i hate i hate i hate how much i hate them...

how i can never love them the way i'd want to.

i hate i hate i hate how one moment i feel like everything may actually be okay, then the world seems to go against you. i hate i hate i hate the feeling of loneliness, the feeling of being rejected, the feeling of being forgotten. i hate i hate i hate how i depend so much on so many things and then realise i could never ever take anything for granted. i hate i hate i hate how hate is such a short ugly word, how it could bring so much harm to the world. the amount of chaos it causes. the hurt and pain it stabs into your system like quick lasting injections.

Until then.
xx

Grapefruit

How love is the sweetest sin~dedication to the one and only missresha

You know whats a good name? Ben:)
You know what my all time favourite junk food filler is? A whopper.
Yes, missresha, I admit it all in this blog.

Anyway, i tried cutting through my maize cake today. Did you know if you put a failed cake into a fridge for about 2 days it becomes as hard as a rock? Yes, that's what happened to me today. I tried cutting it and i failed miserably.
Friends, especially awesome ones that you've known for years, are for life <3. I may be moving houses soon, I don't really want to but I guess I have no choice. The one thing I'll miss most is the fact I'll no longer live close to most of my friends anymore:(

But times are changing.

Sorry for the confusing blog today. A few inside jokes are placed here

Until next time.
xx

Fig

If any of you didn't know, I'm a foodie. I obsess over anything food related. I want to own my own restaurant in the near future, though I'm not sure what type of food I'll serve. Anyway, I thought that since I do food technology, I'll keep track of what i actually cook on this blog as well as other random ramblings. Since I'm in year 12, part of my VCE course for food tech is to make a folio. My folio theme is Dia De Los Muertos. Craziest shiz ever. Google it up if you wanna find out more about it. But all in all, it's a festival that people in Mexico celebrate for the dead. The maize cake I mentioned in my older posts was part of this folio. I'll upload pictures of that as soon as I can. Just to make do though, I'll post up a few pictures of a stir fry I made last year.







...and also a cookies and cream cheese cake I made.







As you can see, the crinkles from the greaseproof paper showed in the end result. Aww:( But trust me, the cake tasted way better than it looked:D
Enjoy:)

Until then.
xx

Etrog

~dedication to my Mintie supplier, to my lit buddy, to my love; my darling~

It's intriguing how social norms act. Especially in school. You watch all those cliche movies about highschool kids and you see the cliche groups. Is there really a social hierarchy at stand in every school? I notice how some people consider themselves more superior than others and how some people are very prone to being picked on. When I finish year 12, would that still be the case in real life? Does everyone still maintain their status? Or does money become the new contributor on where you stand in society? Would you be much more noticed if you were richer? Wore richer clothes?

Enough about that.

I'm in the school play. Well, the term they use at school is the college production. It's Romeo and Juliet, and I play as Lady Capulet. Basically, I'm a stuck up bitch who cries at every saddening event...and romeo and juliet is pretty much a tragedy play. It's good fun though, and I don't consider myself geeky or anything by participating. I wonder, though, if there's some sort of technique that can be used to avoid laughing continuously onstage. Very hard not to when you have half the cast as your friends. Another thing about school, you know what I noticed?? Every single time I talk, a teacher tells me off. Regardless of what subject it is, regardless if the other person is talking constantly to me, the moment I open my mouth, you can bet your money that the teacher will grr at me. How saddening:(.
Anyway, after school, I went with LOVINGPHUONG and another friend to watch him get a haircut. After all, we're bored teenagers who have nothing better to do, and homework never counts :). It was pretty good fun. I made up many scenarios in my head. What if you were getting your hair cut and you ask them to snip 2cms off the end and they end up chopping of your whole hair, leaving 2cms of hair left on your head? I'd grab the shaver and shave off the hairdresser's eyebrows if they ever did that to me.

*grumble* my stomach is calling out for food. I think this is enough for now. I'm craving for cocopops. Damn, gotta love that stuff

Until next time.
xx

Dewberry

Today was an eventful day I'd say.
Started off by making a maize cake with honeyed syrup at school. What an epic failure. The recipe clearly stated for 200g of butter. I added in just less than that. However, when I pulled the cake out of the oven, there was a massive pool of buttery fat on top of the damn cake. Goodness me.
Anyway, after that I had methods. Pretty normal. It's interesting how certain guys have soft spots for certain songs. Like Glee's 'Don't stop believing' and an old song called 'Uptown Girl'. The guys next to me kept singing. Quite entertaining stuff.
You know what I absolutely hate? People who think they can claim a higher status than you. People who use you and think that what they're doing is absolutely fine. People...when confronted, run away like scared little lambs. But who cares about that, I mean, why bother think about those type of people? They don't deserve to even have that little bit of attention from you. two friends of mine got the top parts of their ears pierced today. Man, the sound of the gun gave the impression of it being painful. I mean, your ear is getting stabbed by a needle gun! But it was a clean job. And the end result, I admit, was fantastic. It looked really good.
So after watching two friends getting stabbed, I went with missresha and LOVINGPHUONG to share a maccas dinner box. Lordie those were some good calories man. We were all pretty starving.Anyway, that's the end of that. Sorry if it's not much.

Quote of the day-'...my abs will be a mountain. A mountain of sex'[LOVINGPHUONG]

Until then.
xx

Coconut

thoughts running at a million miles per hour not stopping for a breath when will this rush calm down to the serenity i seek for not being able to think hear see sleep clearly thoughts clouding my head troubled times equal troubled minds people so controlling so needy so greedy always there never there alone in a crowded room full of people wishing wanting grieving needing lust sloth wrath pride gluttony greed envy EXPECTATIONS never achieved never believed soundless sleep deafening silence silent scream company of one two three necessarily but oh so unnecessary freedom liberation misinterpretation misconfiguration sickness? illness? physiological psychological harmless harm painless pain lost voice never to be found needing wanting never getting giving not receiving receive without giving love life happiness joy content with life as how it is set no change no matter

no worries

Until next time.
xx

Berries

Times are changing way too quickly.
Funny how the cliche goes you never know what you have until it's gone. Man, it sounds like all humans are really that naive. Are we really? Is it really not that possible to stick to the same routine day after day? I read a story about this man once, his wife and daughter died years ago. However, every day, he sets out on his usual routine. Goes shopping, buys groceries, cooks dinner..and waits for his wife and daughter to come home so they can eat as a family. When it got too late, he'd silently apologise to them and eat first, then would put their plates in the fridge. Although they never do come home, he does the same thing every day.
Sad isn't it? But honestly, I think the old man was happy with his life. It was the way he remembered them, and it was the strategy he used to fill in his lonely days.
Then again, he may have lived the remainder of his years differently. He could have remarried, had more children. If he had accepted change would life had been better for him?
Like I said before, times change quickly; on the other hand, it's just how you spend your time I guess.

Until then.
xx

Apples

There are so many great things out there in the world. Though, they do get balanced with the horrendous tragedies that also exist in the same world.
But tell you what, I'm not gonna start my blog with a philosophical meaning. After all, I only started this blog because a friend of mine told me to. So, to reply to the bully who sits next to me in methods class, hello cream:). How are you? Feeling whipped?


Hm, I'm feeling quite content now, maybe this blog thing might be a good idea. :)

Until next time.
xx