Lyrics of a Madman

scatter senseless in the streets with such simplicity and certainty.
sighing sadly through the seas drowning in its sorrow.
silly sentiments secluded in the sun's way.
searing stabs and pains that align themselves inside sickening minds.


Until next time.
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Knowledge

A sense of learning and that tingling feeling of a new beginning makes the world that much more worth being in. So, bring out the sunshine and never lose hope :)

Until then.
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Jest

Feels good :)

Until next time.
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Irritation

How am I supposed to see your reasoning if you won't see mine? Where is the justification in that? I'm trying so hard, I really am; but you're making this such an impossible task to accomplish - I feel like purposely becoming a disappointment to you just so I can bear your stupidity.

Until then.
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Heightening habits

Just imagine, you're in a room with no memory of how you got there. No matter how many times you blink, your eyes aren't able to adjust to the pitch blackness that seems to engulf you. Your hands are dry and numb from the damp coldness that surrounds you and you feel your way around the dark. Your fingers trace the rough edges of brick upon brick and it hits you that there are just four stone walls around you. If fear and panic didn't exist, what other emotion would dominate your very being?

Until next time.
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Grand Entrance

Fusion of Minds

It's within the details that an individual can make out the whole. You only need to open your eyes and the ability to distinguish those tiny particles becomes so clear, you'll see matter itself. Sometimes, there are those people who avoid the effort and only see the wider picture. It is then they lose sense of what they were initially doing, losing a little sense in themselves. Sometimes everyone needs a reminder that everything isn't always in shades of black and white.

Until then.
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Elusive

Catch me if you can :)

Until next time.
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Debonair

©James Jean

Critical control

Cravings are a bitch to avoid. You'd think 'just once more' would satisfy you, kinda like a closure, but when you get that taste on your tongue, the adrenalin starts rushing through your veins and you're not even aware that it's already mindfucking you, making it harder to resist; making it that much more addictive.

Until then.
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Belligerent

The soles of her feet prod lightly against the pavement as she picks up her pace, sweat glistens from her forehead, her neck and her chest and her hair unravels itself slowly from her hairtie. The wind is strong and in her favour, the sun keeps her radiating in all her glory. Paths weave ahead of her, houses blur past. The speed of light approaches her, envelopes her, becomes her.

Until next time.
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Antagonist

It's hard to look at such a cute thing and think of something like the phrase 'fucking like rabbits'

Until then.
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Zesty Life

Times come and go and sometimes we're so absorbed in our lives to even realise how much time we actually still have left. I've personally noticed that at first, it was hard to 'cherish' every moment of my life, but recently I've learnt to pay a larger quantity of detail in regards to every aspect of this life of mine. You distinguish the difference between running your life and being a part of it. I got to admit, being a part of it and allowing the course to run in front of you is always the easier way.

Until next time.
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Yep

It is sunny, and I do feel a tad tipsy at the moment, but I am not drunk as Mr. Lactose claims.

Until then.
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XXX

Why are people so stupid? I don't believe love would make you THAT idiotic. Fucks sake.

Until next time.
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Wish Upon A Star

Nowadays I find myself wistful about many things. My life, my future, my approach to life. Although many people claim that they are just playing their part of life, I wonder if people ever just sit still and acknowledge that they're not only just a part of life, but that life is nothing without them. It's like a massive chess board. Without even one pawn, the whole game loses all meaning. If I can pinpoint my task to life right now, it's to make others live it. After all, what is life without living?

Until then.
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Vivid Life

It's an interesting concept when the uninviting become the uninvited. Just throwing it out there.

Until next time.
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United

I'm going to save up for a tattoo. It will be inked around my ankle, almost like an ankle bracelet. I'm going to have a little feather placed close by to it. Not a plume, but those little fluffy baby feathers.

'Gib mir kraft zum fleigen'

It's german :)

Until then.
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True Beauty

I really tend to wonder why some individuals proceed to do things that they know will inflict more harm than good. Is it out of impulse? Revenge? Anger? Or just pure unawareness of the consequences? As an observer, you see the results of their actions before it actually happens. It's like as if it purposely plays in slow motion just so you can identify every single detail that happens.

What really sucks is... you can't really do anything to stop it. you just gotta let it happen. Que sera sera.

Then again, when it does happen, when the damage is done and you witness a little bit of that person die inside, you can't help but cringe and feel the utmost amount of guilt welling up inside you. I always procrastinate and wonder why, between good and bad; people always go for the latter.

Until next time.
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Satisfaction

Been craving a lot recently. Not a good habit :(

Until then.
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Respect

I never thought that this would ever happen, but you've lost mine buddy.

Until next time.
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Queer The Right Way

A subtle breeze is still able to send the tiniest chill up your spine. A light feather can still send ripples running upon the vast naked ocean. A small injection from a needle is able to prevent you from illness for a lifetime.
This proves it then- little ol' me has the power to change this ginormous world.

Until then.
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Palace for the Kings

He moves to the rhythm of his own beat. One foot in front of the other. Repeat. Such an easy process; a process that opens so many doors, he notices.

Are my feet the key to life? he wonders. No, they're merely a part of the puzzle.

It's the moon that shines the way, the sound of the ocean waves that call him home. The little specs of sand wriggle in between his toes and he loves it. He loves it all. This is where I should be. Where it all happens. He closes his eyes and inhales the ocean mist deeply. The aphrodisiac smell travels through his lungs and causes his chest to swell with happiness. He sits down, sinking his bottom into the sand and looks up at the clear night sky. Little stars smile down upon him, playing with his mind while they take turns to sparkle. He needs no camera for this, no civilisation, nothing man made at all. He is one with Mother Earth, it's his eyes that capture the moment.

It's his heart that will store this memory, this life away from life.

Until next time.
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Opulent Opium

You make me smile even when the skies turn grey. Heck, you make it seem like the skies turning grey are the best thing that can happen to this earth. Keep injecting me with this happy drug, I think I'm addicted. Thank you, dear life of mine :)

Until then.
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Narcissist

It's amazing how raw my hate can be for something that shouldn't even exist in the first place. Who made you leader of the pack? Perfection is not you, perfection is nowhere near you. I am my own person and it can't be helped at all- so stop trying to mould me to conform into your life. As disbelieving this may be, I will not be around forever. I will not grovel at your feet forever. I'll be free. Most importantly, I'll be away from you. So unbotton that stiff collar and remove that golf club out of your ass and really, do really, try to open your eyes.

Until next time.
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Make a scene

There's something about you that makes me think in a new light. You possess that ability to make everything seem alright- that all is where it should be. It's so refreshing, though there's this nagging feeling that this isn't forever.

Why do all good things come to an end? I believe I possess the power to prevent this, but I think I need help harnessing it.

Until then.
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Lonely Optimist

It's a wonder why the world spins the way it spins. We, as people living on this planet known as Earth, should count ourselves lucky just for not falling off this rotating ball of land and water. However, it seems that through the consumption of mankind, the new belief in order to feel lucky now requires wealth, popularity and fame.

What happened to just doing what you truly want to do? What happened to just live they way you want to, feel they way you feel and love the way you live? What has this world come to?

Until next time.
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King of the Dinosaurs

It's a necessary necessity!

High tides emerge from the depths. The slow sun steadily beats down onto the grounds. Lost souls are crying for attention, but she doesn't care. It's her day to shine.

Why should things be the way they are? she wonders.

Until then.
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Just Like A Dream

Life's little pleasure #6- I feel like laughing non stop. Do you really find me THAT amusing, honey? More than yourself? Haha! Whatever floats your boat ;)

March, March, March!!! The beginning of Autumn in this country. The beginning of uni and also the beginning of the daily countdown till my birthday!! I'm so excited to the point where I've already started planning my party... well, not really. BUT THE INVITES ARE OUT! :D Yeah I get too ahead of myself at times but you only turn 18 once in your life. Now I just gotta figure out the smaller details of my party. Ohhh party planning. How I love organising these things :)

Just want to say right now that I love my friends who hold such an important role in my life. You guys are my support when I fall. LOVE LOVE LOVE!! [Feeling a tad hippie-ish right now :P]

Until next time.
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In my Imagination

So just a brief catch up of things, I've started uni, pretty fun. I love what I'm learning, so far. I still volunteer at the hospital and I have a cool badge to prove it and I now have a job. YESSSS :D

I tutor little kids and try to explain them the fundamental concepts of maths and english. It's a bit of a pain sometimes with the sorting out of the work but I have a cool friend to help me out with that :)I love the kids, the kids love me. Some of them are quite cheeky, but I love how that even at such a young age their imagination is what keeps their personality strong. I find it my job to keep that imagination flowing :D

I've been having the weirdest dream on repeat recently, but everytime, it morphs itself in a different way. However, the final result is always the same. I'm guitaring to some audience with some person and a loud applause greets us at the end. Every single time, I feel the urgency to strain my head out into the blackness to look for someone. The need to see them is there, but I have no clue who 'they' are :S.

Until then.
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Heroes of the World

Has it really been that long? Damn, I shall try and keep this up and running again. Soon... I'm lacking sleep at the moment

Life's little pleasure #5- When you erase that person who did nothing but harm to your life and finally see that light at the end of the tunnel :)

Until next time.
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Gregory Day

Life's little pleasures #4- When you wake up and no one's home...and you get to walk around naked without a care in the world...

[sorry if I scarred anyone out there :P]

Until then.
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Felix the cat

You know what? I DO like Pina Coladas and getting caught in the rain.

Until next time.
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Eve

Good news right now. I got into the uni I wanted, and my life seems to be at a new start. Looking extremely forward to it :)

Until then.
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Dom Howard

Events happen for a reason. There's this book I'm reading that says with good comes bad. With bad, you may experience even more badness. Doesn't that prove that goodness is that much harder to gain? On a side note, I hate cliches, the typicals and the immature. Not saying immaturity is all bad, but there are times when I really think one should consider to grow up and shut the fuck up when necessary. Not everything is about you.

Until next time.
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Captain Underpants

I shall say this here to avoid wasting my time having to look at your face. I shall say this here not because I am a coward, but because I believe myself to be a better person than you. I shall say this here because knowing you, you'll turn this into another one of your dramas and get as many unnecessary people involved as possible. because that's just how you are.

I hope in the near future you look back and notice how crappy your personality is. Never have I met anyone so ignorant, so VAIN in my life. You're fat. They are not muscles. Your abs are really just rolls of fat. You think you're hot when you really aren't. Stop thinking that every girl who looks at you is checking you out! Stop checking out every single thing that has a vagina out there as well! Your eating habits are repulsive as well for God's sakes.

Get that stick out of your ass and stop thinking that whoever gets the 'privilege' to know you is lucky. What the fuck, seriously?

I hate how whenever you hang out with us and see anyone you know, you completely ignore us. Stop taking us for granted! Even though the others are more forgiving. I'm not. I hate when you continuously talk shit, I hate when you always ALWAYS compare. There is supposed to be equality or at least a sense of equality out there, do you know that? Of course you don't. You have no 'status', you idiot.

I hate you. Seriously. Leaving me out like that for all these years?? What is this? Primary school? And acting all clueless about it just confirms your cockiness and immaturity. Everytime you're around I feel the need to punch something. Everytime I HEAR your name I just want smash you into bits. Fuck off, stay the fuck out of my life. I never needed you and I never will. I've never hated anyone more than you, so you're pretty fucking special to feel this wrath.

To my normal readers... so sorry you had to read this filth. I just couldn't contain it in my mind any longer.

Until then.
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Bananaboat Kid

Life's Little Pleasures #3- When you believe that feeling that even though there are people who don't want you, there are also people out there who can't live without you. How this happened? I know this sounds vain but I imagined myself dying somehow then all the people who always took me for granted falling apart.

Yeah, I'm one heck of a dark soul aren't I?

Tsk tsk >:|

But to be honest it made me feel somewhat good.

Until next time.
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Anastacia

Sometimes I think that Mother Nature tries to prove her love to us by 'hugging' us with tidal waves and floods. It's her only way to be able to hold or touch as much as she can at once. Shame love is destructive sometimes.

Until then.
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Zero

Life's Little Pleasures #3- The power of hope; as in... it is only with hope of escaping from this shithole of a family that I am able to continue living my life with my head high.

Not sure why it's taken me so long to figure it out, but I've finally understood my mum and dad's technique of parenting. Punishment first, justification later [but shall be ignored regardless]. Confused? Not hard to explain actually. A perfect example would be last night. While I was washing the dishes, my mum comes and starts yelling at me for wasting electricity, saying that from now on I should be the one paying the bill, saying that all I do around the house is waste waste waste. Never anything productive or helpful in the family. I stare down at the soap suds on my hand and try to recall back all my science lessons, figuring out how soap and water relate to electricity. Regardless, she keeps droning on and on and on and I'm thinking what on earth is she on about? Geez, is it your time of the month or something?? Then I interrupt her rant by saying 'Mum...' and apparently that's enough reason enough for her to slap me. 'How dare you reply back to me? Do you have no respect at all? How dim witted can you be??'

At this moment, my dad comes into the kitchen and sees me staring daggers at my mum while she talks at an incredible speed on a high decibel. He asks what's wrong and she tells him 'She left the bathroom lights on and just left without turning them off' Then I think...what.the.fuck. 'No I didn't. I haven't even gone into the bathroom yet!' In which my dad goes, 'I went in, I just forgot to turn off the lights. now can you shut up so I can watch tv?' Then I stare at my mum and go 'That's what the yelling was all about? I didn't turn on the lights.' Mum then goes 'Doesn't give you reason to speak in a rude manner to me like that! When you get money and start paying the bills...' 'No mum, I'm not going to pay the bills because I'm not the one wasting electricity.' But of course, she walks away still ranting on about blasphemy cause that's the way she rolls. Did she hear me? Nope. Does she care? Nope.

You stupid bitch.

On a lighter note, I caught up with an old primary school friend. I also have recently been catching up with a good childhood friend. It's a great feeling. We should never let life lead us astray from the positive relations that are held. That and I also JUST completed my first driving lesson. Apparently I'm a fast learner according to Mr. Drive Man. :)

Hope indeed.

Until next time.
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Yours Truly

Life's Little Pleasures #2- When you don't eat anything for all of the morning, walk around for ages and finally when that first mouthful of food [in this case, a burger] hits your tastebuds and your stomach is basically screaming for more.

I never knew job hunting was so HARD!! Could someone out there just have a midlife crisis, realise they're more capable of a better job, quit their job then give it to me???

IS THAT SO HARD???

...*sniff


Until then.
xx

X&Y

Life's little pleasures.

I think I may embark on a little mission to help me become much more aware of life itself. It occurred to me while I was eating with a friend how we always undermine the value life's little pleasures hold. Maybe it's because we've always been too busy trying to search for what we believe to be the bigger and better values in life. The pursuit of happiness in a sense. So, I've decided to heighten my senses and try to notice every single little pleasure that life throws at me.

And, to start off-
Life's little pleasure #1- When you're busting to go to the toilet and when you finally release your bladder, your head sings a little prayer of thanks. Ahhhhh

Until next time.
xx

Won't Go Home Without You

It's funny how you can be in a cycle and not even realise that you've been travelling the same route of shame for a while now. And when realisation finally hits you, the slap it leaves behind stings like a bitch. So how to get out of this cycle? I've made a list, though I highly doubt any of these would be helpful at all.

1. Swim the Atlantic Ocean- after all, it's just an oversized outdoor pool.


2. Teach your pets how to behave like other animals


3. Learn a new language


I'd continue with this but I realised that all these are basically just one solution that I could think of.

Distraction.

Any other suggestions?

Until then.
xx

Viva La Vida

I went to Langham Hotel in Melbourne to eat at the Melba Restaurant. My God the food was awesome for a 5 star Buffet. It literally oozed with luxury and elegance but I doubt that stopped me from stuffing my face like a pig. I took quite a few pictures and I'll chuck them all on here because it really has been a while since I've put anything food related here. The best thing about eating there? The desserts. Definitely. Hands down. Enjoy these pictures!!


This was an asian stir fry that was made on the spot by one of the chefs. You basically just pick whatever you wanted in it, with whatever noodles and hey presto you got your dish.


Okay so not really plated up perfectly...at all. But I hope you understand that when you place a food fanatic in a 5 star all you can eat she doesn't really care what the food looks like, just as long as it goes in her belly :P This was just a whole bunch of assorted stuff like sushi, salad bits and cold meats.


MUSSELS!! These were creamy and delicious. They were also properly cleaned so you didn't have any of the nitty gritty bits.


Oysters and sashimi, along with a small messy blob of wasabi and soy sauce as a compliment. Once again, they were cleaned properly so I didn't find little shell bits within them.


This was my dad's plate. Heaven knows I told him countless times that the food was gonna be there the whole time but he insisted on bringing back extremely heaped up plates. Fresh bread, soaked olives, kim chi, doritos with salsa and coleslaw.


This was my sister's juice called 'Honey honey' priced at $11. I think it was mango, pineapple and...honey? No clue.


My mother's cocktail known as the 'Chunky Monkey' [Yes, they had interesting names for the beverages]. It was coffee with some sort of strong liqueur... once again I'm not quite sure as to what was in it. This beverage was $21.


My beverage was called simply 'Strawberries and cream'. Yes, I am underaged and yes it did have alcohol in it, though it wasn't strong. There were fresh strawberries blended in there and it tasted like a strawberry smoothie with a hint of alcoholic aftertaste. I was quite immature and had fun licking the sugar off around the rim of the glass. Yeahh I know I know, not 5 star behaviour but hey, I'm weird like that :P This cocktail was also $21.


From the sushi bar, you were able to request sashimi from the chef and watch as he sliced the raw fish at ultimate speed. There were also two types of seaweed salad, fish roe served on cucumber flowers and miso soup[though I didn't take a picture of the soup] to compliment the sushi.


My mum's the sushi fanatic, so she got the basted eel, octopus, braised shitake mushrooms and tuna on hers. Oh and salmon of course :)


Besides miso soup, this was the only other soup available. Sweet potato and ginger soup. As weird as it sounded it was delicious. A prefect combination of ingredients that left a creamy texture on your tongue and the smell of slightly roasted potato with a hint of ginger made it that much more special.


Once again, my dad's plate. I think he became a fan of the cold meats. He also picked up some roasted lamb, beef and a couple of dinner rolls along with a small lump of blue vein cheese and goat's cheese.


NAAN BREAD!! Man, these were a guilty pleasure to eat. They were made fresh on the spot with whatever little flavourings you wanted. I asked for the garlic and cheese and it was pretty fun watching the chef slap the rounded dough onto the oven.

Ahhhh... dessert. How you tempt thee so.


Lime jelly. Quite acidic and extremely sour. Left a subtle sweet aftertaste.


This would have been my favourite. Youghurt creme that had condensed milk in it. Sweet and sour work oh so well together.


This was a small sponge cupcake that had been soaked with a bit of alcohol. I was quite surprised really. At first it looked a bit dry. I popped the whole thing in my mouth and a burst of inner alcohol spread itself upon my tastebuds.


A mixed berry compote, custard, cream and soaked spongecake combination in a glass. I really reckon the glass made it that much more special.


This tiramisu was a bit bland. Maybe it was the batch they had that day, or maybe because I possess an absolute sweet tooth. I liked the idea of presenting it in a little coffee cup. There was a coffee bean on top which was made entirely of chocolate. Now that was an unique twist.


The classic creme brulee. What else can I say? It was dee-liciousss...that's about it. :P


Langham served quite a lot of food that possessed a little twist. The flan was great but I was a bit disappointed that it was just plopped onto a little plate.



To be honest I've had better ice cream. But the chocolate fountain was fun! that combined with my love for marshmallows made me feel like a kid again. I loved the skewers they had. As you can see there were two designs.


Onto the little desserts that weren't on little plates or in miniature cups. This was a very very very extremely rich chocolate truffle. It was so gooey to bite into.


A tiny lemon meringue. Like I said, sweet and sour is an awesome combination. Looked like a little cloud that had too much sun to me.


Chocolate chocolate chocolate!! What else can I say?


Blackforest mousse. Not much of a fan of it, but that's just me. There wasn't anything actually wrong with it.


I quite liked the colours of this. Believe it or not there weren't any actual artificial colours or flavours in any of their food. This was a passionfruit, lime and coconut mousse layered cake. The citric component gave it a wonderful taste. Would it make sense if I said it tasted fresh?


Strawberry cheesecake. I love cheesecake. That, is all.


This is a mud cake which I'm guessing was designed for little kids. Made me wonder how fun it would be holding the icing tube and completing a smile on each little clown.


Known as the coconut bomb, it was literally just a shitload[mind the language] of coconut bits mixed with a bit of sponge. I don't really like coconut much but coconut fans might love this.


There was the fragrance of rosewater in this. I loved it. I think it would be in between a cheesecake and a mousse. Thicker than a mousse but it had no cheese in it.


An orange cake I'm guessing it was. The top fruit glaze was a citric sweet and sour, the sponge was soft and pillowy. It was literally the melt in your mouth type of cake.

So there you go. My experience at Langham was awesome. I've been there a few times but I decided to photograph the crap out of the food for this blog. To finish off... GROUP PHOTO :D



Until next time.
xx

Unnatural Selection

A new year leads to new beginnings people claim. They make resolutions and about 95% of the time those resolutions are forgotten within the first three months. Then when the end of the year nears, they remember those resolutions and make a mental note to keep these new resolutions. The cycle goes on and on. But really, just because the last digit of the date has changed, does everything else really change as well? I know this year will be a change for me with uni coming up, being able to finally operate a car, become of 'legal age' etc. For those who are still in the same job, same school, same routine, would this year be the year you make that step forward in life? Would it be the year you leap backwards instead? I honestly reckon that it's mind over matter for this situation.

My new years resolution? To be true to myself. Even though the truth may hurt at times. As I raise my glass of strawberry milk up to you people out there, here's to a new year and hopefully the beginning of a new life that is no longer filled with delusion.
*Cheers*

Until then.
xx