Life's Little Pleasures #3- The power of hope; as in... it is only with hope of escaping from this shithole of a family that I am able to continue living my life with my head high.
Not sure why it's taken me so long to figure it out, but I've finally understood my mum and dad's technique of parenting. Punishment first, justification later [but shall be ignored regardless]. Confused? Not hard to explain actually. A perfect example would be last night. While I was washing the dishes, my mum comes and starts yelling at me for wasting electricity, saying that from now on I should be the one paying the bill, saying that all I do around the house is waste waste waste. Never anything productive or helpful in the family. I stare down at the soap suds on my hand and try to recall back all my science lessons, figuring out how soap and water relate to electricity. Regardless, she keeps droning on and on and on and I'm thinking what on earth is she on about? Geez, is it your time of the month or something?? Then I interrupt her rant by saying 'Mum...' and apparently that's enough reason enough for her to slap me. 'How dare you reply back to me? Do you have no respect at all? How dim witted can you be??'
At this moment, my dad comes into the kitchen and sees me staring daggers at my mum while she talks at an incredible speed on a high decibel. He asks what's wrong and she tells him 'She left the bathroom lights on and just left without turning them off' Then I think...what.the.fuck. 'No I didn't. I haven't even gone into the bathroom yet!' In which my dad goes, 'I went in, I just forgot to turn off the lights. now can you shut up so I can watch tv?' Then I stare at my mum and go 'That's what the yelling was all about? I didn't turn on the lights.' Mum then goes 'Doesn't give you reason to speak in a rude manner to me like that! When you get money and start paying the bills...' 'No mum, I'm not going to pay the bills because I'm not the one wasting electricity.' But of course, she walks away still ranting on about blasphemy cause that's the way she rolls. Did she hear me? Nope. Does she care? Nope.
You stupid bitch.
On a lighter note, I caught up with an old primary school friend. I also have recently been catching up with a good childhood friend. It's a great feeling. We should never let life lead us astray from the positive relations that are held. That and I also JUST completed my first driving lesson. Apparently I'm a fast learner according to Mr. Drive Man. :)
Hope indeed.
Until next time.
xx
:) And so you did. I hope that my drawling ON camera can help in some way to make your day a little brighter, we've all been there with the psycho mother (well, the best of us have anyways). Thank you too for the positive comments about my physical and otherwise appearance, always a confidence booster when a lady says such things (yes, I said lady). And you shall always be recruited onto team Chance Fighters, I will let you know when you are needed on the front lines ;)
ReplyDeleteProps on the driving too:D