Never have I felt so alone. I'm trying... fuck I'm trying. No matter where I go I can't seek comfort and it hurts, just hurts so much. My mask is wearing out and my emotions are slowly clawing their way through. If she takes over again... God knows what will happen.
Worthless, senseless, empty. The terrors of my dreams, the scars that will never heal. Crying for attention isn't my style. Holding it in fucking sucks. I'm at an impasse- do I let people in and allow them to see how completely fucked up I am? Or do I push everyone away for their own good. My heart will always crave what my mind forbids. I can't even deal with myself. What makes it possible for me to deal with everyone else then?
The countdown begins.
Until then.
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