I'm so absolutely sick of it.
Really. How immature could adults be??
How immature could my PARENTS be???
My mum's a stubborn bitch; my dad's an arrogant bastard.
There is no GOOD between them, because they never TRY.
Tomorrow is my dad's birthday. My mum got pissed off at him for the smallest thing today and so she didn't give him dinner. He was too stubborn himself to admit defeat and get dinner himself; and so he goes to bed without eating. He's gonna wake up on his birthday hungry. Great. They have issues. they should stop being so selfish. My sister and I should be the ones who get to be selfish. I mean, I have my fucking exams coming up. Do they care? No they don't. Not only do they continuously yell at me, they threaten to suicide so many times, they threaten to leave the house, they both take turns threatening to divorce the other, and we just bought a new house! What is this?! Do they have no fucking common sense? they want me to get good grades. How the FUCK do I do that if they wouldn't even leave me alone??? Honestly, I don't care for either of them. I won't. Not until they actually show a bit of affection for me and most importantly, for each other. Is that so much to ask? A daughter of a family is just asking for a proper fucking family. But I can only wish can I? Is a functional family so hard to ask for?? I can never find the motivation to do anything anymore. I go to school and dread exams, I go home and dread...everything. There is literally no escape anywhere. On top of that, some teachers at school give me the shit. Grrr...I'm feeling so grrr towards the world.
I think I'm gonna just go do something fun-definitely not my homework.
Until next time.
xx
Welcome to the club. Sucks hell but I hope you hang in there. Some people (a lot of the time parents) have no idea how lucky they are to have the people they do. I hope yours realise some day soon that they have you, because it kind of sounds like they have forgotten. MOST IMPORTANTLY - do that fun thing, keep doing fun things. Some times it's the only thing that will keep you sane. And oh yeah, stuff the teachers, it's hard to find good ones anyways, and the rest love to deal out shit. It's their hobby.
ReplyDeleteBy the way ... what are going to do now that you have gotten to "Z" in fruits?
ReplyDeletetterly true of you to say. I've had the same thought for a while. Every new parent should be made to go through a course, and most of the existing parents too. Sounds like you're dong a kick ass job, one that you should never have to do, but none the less, you should be proud of yourself for helping your siblings.
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